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Now I just wanna lie down in my bed, fall into a deep sleep and have everlasting dreams. Yes, everlasting. I wanna to dream forever in my sleep for me never having to wake up again and to live on. I'm afraid of both living and dying. I'm just like some unreal existing things on Earth. I'm even not invisible. All what I am is just a thing which abandon everything and is abandoned by the rest of the world. Should I go on living? It's not about possibility, it's about what i should be in real life. I shouldn't be born in human shape. I shouldn't be born to be a human. Noone 's afraid of their own comrades :)). I trust noone, I trust no humans. All are liars. I'm scared of this life :)).