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This is my list of music for these weird days on which my emotion, sentiment and thought are soooooooo colorful and seem to be so easily reversed between the 2 contrary extremes only :). And for the first time, thinking of falling down onto somewhere deeply into the center of the Earth from the top of the endless blue sky doesn't scare me at all. In fact, I'm very curious now 'bout the state of letting body drifting along the way rain rivers always flow. Yes, rains are rivers which flow vertically along the gravity of the Earth, the heart of everything. Falling down from the blue sky, touching the white clouds and even getting through one of them to feel the softness and cool air in them are such extreme experience an individual could ever have. I love that moment if it could be real in my life :) just for once. Not knowing the destination is ok. When you fall, your back is against that destination, only your eyes and your skin are alive to see the beauty of the place you've just left and the pureness and innocence of the fresh air of the existence and life you've preciously had. So it's fantastic, that "falling through a cloud" :). I'm not scared anymore.

And my music, my ancient tunes from the past, helps me stronger and gives me more courage to encounter anything on my way back to the heart of everything.

*Uttara Kuru:

Falling through a cloud
Mendicant Priest
Mendicant Priest (remix)
Tsugaru
Tsugaru (reprise)
Wintry Wind
Neyuki

*Hiromitsu Agatsuma:

Kaze
Miyabi
Yuudachi

*Rin':

Sakura Sakura
Sakitama
Sakitama (Ins.)
Fuhen

*Rurutia:

Lost Butterfly
Genwaku no Kaze
Suzaku no Sora

*Trịnh Công Sơn:

Đêm thấy ta là thác đổ
Ru em từng ngón xuân nồng

These days have been quite crazy but I like it. And I guess Mom is worried about me. She knows that I definitely never have any ideas of leading to a religous life but it seems like she's afraid that I have some mental problems :|. Poor Mom! It's all because I refuse to live a normal life as her one, which is sleeping at night, waking up when the sun rises and then spending a whole day working till sunset and being back home where her heart is. I don't like that.

I love sunshine but preferably the peace and silence at night :). I'm nearly all alone in my true own space after midnight, and that helps me concentrate totally on my work, reading, thinking, arranging and filtering ideas for my final writing then. I love it as it really makes my life for myself only :). Being alone to set your soul as calm as the dark night. And I think one day Mom will sympathize with me since I'm her beloved daughter in the end.

Last night I merely slept for 3 hours, so there's still lack of 5 hours. I'm gonna go to bed now :). What a day! What sweet days even though how hard they could have been! Great books, meaningful quotations and fantastic music, you're all my best companions for any journeys from the past to the future :).

Thank God for giving me a heart full of energetic streamline of sentiment and desire of love, and a brain never lacking of curiosity about life and always daring to find out the answers for all :). I suddenly think of the age of Love. Well, I can say that it's as old as the winds and as young as new sunlight of early morning of a new day ;). And that's all what love stands for :), being unpredictable ;)!

Love my Life! :)